introspection

I'm a photographer.  At least I want to be.  This blog is named after my business, however, I don't think this will be all about photography, my photography, other people's photography.  I think photographs are an insight into the photographer's life and perspective, so I want to write about my life, and my perspective.  I find blogs an easy forum because I have to use decent grammar and punctuation and I can actually read my own writing.

This is my father:

and no,
I did not take this picture.  My uncle, Cliff Furnald, takes the credit for this one.

Dad died a month ago.  I honestly don't know how to deal with the situation except to ignore it, which I can honestly say is probably not psychologically healthy.  I still write on his facebook wall and I also text him.  Mom shut down his email accounts, so I can't email him anymore.  My heart knows he's here, but my head knows he's gone, and I don't know how to reconcile the two.  I haven't grieved yet--and I know it will hit hard when it does. 

I love my sisters and my mother, but there is nothing in the world like a father.  Really.